I'm writing on this blog because I wanna write and vent, but I know no one reads this. I'm just so fed up with the male sex. I mean please, what is wrong with them?!?!
And what's most annoying is the way I can't get a certain one off my mind. It should be easy to do, half the time he's infuriating me. But there's something I can't let go of. I don't even know what it is. He's on my mind all day. And he's ignoring me. I don't know what happened, don't know why all the sudden he's paused/stopped communication. I'm not pursuing it though, cause it'll probably only annoy him. I guess one of us annoyed is better than both. Although i wish it was him and not me. I've been in a funk for a week. I don't see how it could just be from him, but nothing else is going on. So I guess I will blame him for it afterall.
And it gets worse. I can't even complain to my friends because one doesn't wanna hear it, I know, and the other is this certain someone's sister, so I know she REALLY doesn't wanna hear it. She knows about "us", I say "us" because there is no "us", but she doesn't want to be involved. So I'm trying to respect her wishes and not talk to her about it. So that leaves no one really to talk to.
He's not looking for a relationship. What does that even mean? I mean, who goes LOOKING for one, they usually just happen don't they? I guess he doesn't even want to let one happen. Whatever. Fine. I'm probably better off. Now if my heart and my head would just come into sync on this one maybe I could concentrate on other things and stop staring at my phone.
And not only is this not the first time this has happened in general, it's not the first time this has happened with this particular someone. Yes, yes I let myself get tangled up TWICE. Why? Because I'm a masochistic dope.
It's raining, at least the weather agrees with me.
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